Day 2. 19.08.10: Monsters

Yesterday, I had another dream. I was traveling with my daughter. And in my absent mindedness, I left her alone outside the immigration office as I went in to sort out our visa. Urgh. It ended well though. I found her safe.  I was worried she would walk away with people who were friendly with her, there are just so many pervs out there. But there she stood, guarding our luggage, waiting for me and not letting anyone touch or talk to her.I guess, my dreams are telling me that I give her far less credit then she actually deserves…hang on, she’s only two for goodness sake!

This afternoon, we got some chalks and drew this. My monsters. Monsters that I need to confront to move on. She drew the whiskers on the middle monster. No kidding, she did. I only outlined it more so it stands out better.

Day #1. 18.09.10 : Nightmares

I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?
John Lennon

Last night, I had a nightmare, one of my good friend was in trouble, lost rather. Sometimes, I think its a real connection, perhaps he was reaching out to me or anyone who’s listening. He was in a little town, so was I. But he was there first and his soul seemed to be a couple of steps behind him. I guess that’s why I felt he was lost. He was my guide in that town since he was there first. He knew places to eat, even get a hair cut. But still, I ‘felt’ he was lost. Its amazing these dreams, the emotions are so clear and strong, it feels like you’re wearing your emotions like a t-shirt. It felt like ages that dream. I woke up and rushed to my daughter’s room to check on her. Mummy’s paranoia I guess. She’s fine but I was left confused by the dream. And yes, I checked that that  friend of mine was fine after all. Maybe its me, maybe its a mirror and I’m the one who is lost, empty because perhaps it is my soul that’s trudging behind my me…or maybe he doesn’t know it yet…that he is lost…?

Musings for 365 days!

Yes. I am joining the band wagon, blogging as much or little as necessary. Mainly its to challenge myself to a discipline, a routine …lets see how I can cope with this!